job..

my job coach is coming in about a half an hour. i'm not sure if i expressed my frustration with her on my blog lately. something tells me i MUST'VE because she irritated me so much when she told me i should remove the event when i wrote and gave a speech for Mothers Against Drunk Driving because it "happened longer than 10 years ago" so it's not relevant or some shit- however, when i went to my last job interview (which turned out to be a waste of time because they were only looking for full-time workers and i can only work part-time right now because it'll mess my benefits up), my job coach handed a lady at the job i THOUGHT i was interviewing my resume and she read through it, then flipped the paper and read the back- i KNOW that's where my speech is listed (on the back), then she read it and said, "impressive.." she didn't say it was impressive until after she read the back.. so i'm almost GUARANTEEING that she meant MY SPEECH was impressive.. she didn't care how old it was. i'm not sure if she and her supervisor figure that if i give the resume with my speech listed- they won't have a job anymore with me and they'll have one less client. there are TONS of other unemployed people out there.. so i don't really understand why they're so set on keeping me as a client if i happen to find a job. i recently volunteered for central honors philando on sunday- honoring philando castile's life because he was killed by a police 10 years ago. so i added that to my resume yesterday but i'm not sure if my job coach will tell me to take it off for some reason. i think it'd show that i'm able to help children because i listed it as i worked at the activity table for children at the event. i DO have other resumes made WITHOUT mentioning my speech and i'm pretty sure that's what my job coach told me to use for the last.. oh i think about last 3 or 4 months at least and *GASP* NO ONE SHOWS ANY INTEREST IN HIRING ME! *rolls eyes* it wasn't til lately when i just printed out the resumes WITH the speech listed and i'm pretty sure i sent the last guy who i THOUGHT i was having the interview with- the new resumes WITH my speech listed. so i'm not sure if this job coach is REALLY trying to help me get hired or if she just wants a client who is motivated EVEN when they've been unemployed for 4 years (dexian called me this morning and they asked me the last time i worked and they said it said on my resume it was in 2021.. i didn't even think about telling them about how i just volunteered this past sunday.. damnit). i'm sure that's a major reason why no one is really interested- they want more relevant employment but I'VE HAD A JOB COACH AT LEAST FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS.